Grace

I wish we had happier updates to report, but things are only looking worse for Grace. I know we just need to hold on until she's through this difficult part, but it is so disheartening to watch her decline as she is. Her hair is falling out rapidly. Strands fall out at a touch. She hands me handfulls of hair and looks at me with droopy eyelids. She is predominately in bed or on the couch, staring off and feeling just horrid. The poor girl gets so sick, and can't help but vomit. She cries and just says she feels awful and we feel so helpless, though we're doing all we can to help her. Whenever we have to pick Tanner up from school she just cries and cries because she's too tired to even go in the car and today she felt so frustrated with her Cancer she just wanted to scream-but she was too tired to scream. And, then she told me she wished she was normal again and hated having Cancer. What can I say to that? I agree! I told her she's completely normal, but she's fighting hard right now and it's not easy. But, I told her it wouldn't last forever. I have to be honest...a day feels like an eternity and I can't imagine it from her perspective. But, as I've said before-she's so sweet through it all. She thanks us endlessly and tells us she loves us so much and we're the best parents. It's almost too heartbreaking to hear her sweetness in such a tumultous time. Not that I'm not grateful for her precious spirit, but I wouldn't care if she was mean and angry-I think that's how I'd feel if I was in her shoes. What a noble little person Grace is. She even fights this graciously. She brings us to our knees daily, as we are in awe of her strength.
Sweet Tanner came home sick from school today. I think he caught our flu bug. I'm trying to give extra TLC to him, because I can just tell he needs it right now. But, some happy news to report-Eva and Annabelle are right as rain. I'm pretty sure they are in cahoots though... they always seem to be forging a devious plan!