Friday, August 29, 2008

Grace's Courage and Faith

For over two weeks Grace's day-to-day has consisted of needles, tests, machines, doctors, nurses, surgeons,  and procedures, accompanied by an unstoppable appetite, the scary thought of loosing her hair, the start of a brand new school, the fact that she cannot leave her room, missing her home, missing playing outside, and knowing that her body is very ill. Yet, she is continually cheerful, happy, and optimistic. That is not to say that she doesn't hate taking her medicine, or not want to be here, but in the end she does it and moves on. 

She looks at us, sucks it up, and does what she is asked to do.  Tonight a glimpse of her faith and determination was shown in a simple conversation we had over Indian food.  

While watching a movie Grace commented on how good a plate of food looked (see above referring to appetite) and I told her that the dish was an Indian dish and it was very good. We started talking about where I had tasted Indian food and I told her about these food carts in downtown Portland that have great food, but are a decent walk, and look a little scary-hygienically speaking.  I told her to trust me that they were very good and the Indian food she was looking at on TV tasted awesome. For some reason, although she was probably talking about the food I felt this overwhelming feeling that she was talking about more. I said to her "you should come with me next time and give it a try," she responded by sitting up on her hospital bed,  looking right at me and saying with a sweet, but exhausted smile, "I would go with you anywhere daddy."

My heart aches for Grace. We as adults know the details of her sickness, we understand the seriousness of cancer, and we appreciate how important all the tests, machines, and hospital hours are. Yet Grace, knowing she is sick, but not knowing the big picture goes with us anywhere. Trusting and having faith that the promises we have made to her about getting better are worth the suffering and discomfort. 

One again we would like to say thank you for all your thoughts, prayers, gifts, calls, comments, love, and friendship. 

9 comments:

Lisa said...

Thank you for be willing to share this experience with all of us. Your families experiences and faith are an inspiration to all who read. Any word on when Grace can go home? Love to all of you.

Anonymous said...

JR, Kim And kiddos,

Your courage and faith and optimism and joy is teaching all of us who love you and are standing right next to you through this difficult and scary time.

May heavens choices blessings reach you and angels keep surrounding you. All my love, mom

Fancy Nancy said...

WOW! That is truly powerful. Thanks for sharing, Gracie's courage and faith strengthens all of our us. What a sweetheart.

Kristen said...

Thats a moment that would forever replay in my heart, how touching. Her courage is amazing, we are all so proud and impressed with Gracie.

Unknown said...

well, after all, it is to be said that faith the size of a mustard seed moves mountains. sending all of you love and good fortunate for the unknown future ahead.

Jill T said...

I'm so proud of Grace--her faith is so inspiring and she is such a good example of remaining cheerful even when things are hard.

What a great post--I have so much appreciated all the blog updates. It is nice to know what is happening despite the heart ache that I feel for Gracie.

Love you guys.

O said...

You are an inspiration to all who read this Blog.Your family has always showed its faith and honor to the world and so your children follow the example you and Kim have set,They find courage and faith even in this trying time.
I know your heart breaks with each new hurdle,but we are sending love,prayers and faith to you and the doctors so they will choose the best care for our GRACE.
love and prayers O

Jen said...

JR, it is so powerful hearing your side of all of this. I can't imagine how your heart must ache, I know you and Grace are so close, as only daddys and daughters can be. Thanks for sharing these details, it inspires our family so much to see how faithful you are in this trial. We are praying for your family so hard! We know you will prevail. love, the VWs

Erin said...

Of course she would go anywhere with you. She is so blessed to have you and Kim by her side through this whole ordeal. You are taking great care of her. She is such an example to us all.